Note to Self

Dear Self,

Remember this: You may be crazy and too much, but to the right person, you will be enough. He will see past your flaws and love you regardless. He will help you tone down your overemotions and never tire of reassuring you (pero bawasan mo din ha).

Like him, he will make plans to be with you. Everything you appreciate about them, the next person will be able to offer for you too.

(God, I still hope it’s him. I still hope he come back). But know this, even if it’s not him, you will be okay. Believe me, you are smart, beautiful, and worthy of love. You are a good person (most times), and someone will come and appreciate that. Someone will ask you how you are, what things you like, and what your dreams are.

Right now, instead of wishing for him, focus on loving yourself more. Do not wallow in sadness. Do not let your fears of losing him be bigger than your desire to be happy. You can do this! Believe in yourself! You will be happy! You’ve been happy before he admitted they had feelings for you, so trust in that. Choose to be happy.

If he really did left without saying goodbye, then stop asking why. It’s just the way it is. Do not regret anything. Don’t think that you messed things up. It just wasn’t meant to be.

You will be loved. You are loved by so many. Just keep on loving, especially yourself. Believe that the universe has something great in store, and when it comes, don’t doubt it, just embrace it.